Tuesday, November 30, 2004

Party like a rockstar

Tonight my friends and I party! Okay, not really, we have to work on Thursday and we are way too old to stay out terribly late. However, we are going to go out to eat and look for christmas presents and hey if that doesn't qualify as a party, I do not know what does in this day and age. Yeah, we are really becoming that old. Anyway, this means that I have not eaten that much for the rest of the day, cereal for breakfast, small lunch, no real snacks. As a result I am rather loopy right now (although that may also be because I am tired) and I do not want to do work. I should however do work because I am going to spend all afternoon in court and will not have time for paperwork. Yet here I am blogging on the internet instead. Anyway, I am struck by how different my food choices are now, I am slowly learning how to balance my meals and compensate for eating a lot of calories one place by having restraint in other meals. It is a whole new life plan and hey I think I may just be able to keep this up long term. Now, I just need to get in more exercise and stop injuring myself in the process.

Monday, November 29, 2004

General rambling

My roommate is sick with strep, which of course leads to the great fear that I will become sick as well. I am attempting to avoid that possibility, even though I am really tired today and do not feel great. Still, hopefully my body will pull through and I can get actual work accomplished. I work in a pretty small office and getting sick would not be an option because of the amount of work we have to do and the number of courts which our attorneys cover. I am supposed to workout tonight but I am not sure that will happen, especially given the fact that my ankle continues to twinge and hurt even two days after it was injured. It is also a lovely purple and green shade right now which may well be nature's way of telling me to take it easy. I hate missing exercise but I would hate to permanently injure my ankle even more and I have to take that into consideration as well. Anyway, I have to get back to work, possibly eat lunch because I haven't really done that yet and passing out in court would probably qualify as a bad thing.

Sunday, November 28, 2004

Weekend in Review

I did actually run during frisbee yesterday, see I told you that I have absolutely no good sense when it comes to these matters. My ankle is still swollen today but it does not really hurt except for the occasional twinge. Yesterday at the end of the frisbee game both of my ankles hurt which was not a good sign. Only one of them is really swollen though and that swelling is begining to go down slowly but surely. I am a little worried about aikido tomorrow evening, I will have to see how the ankle is doing at that point. At least I got in a lot of exercise yesterday, running around like a maniac since we were only playing with six people total on the frisbee field. Also, I was guarding a friend of mine who is really a fast runner and that meant that I have to run a lot more than I do normally which was probably a good thing for my cardio vascular fitness level. Last night we went out for sushi, a sunday night tradition among my friends, and I think I only ate eight pieces of sushi total which is a new record low for me. Normally I eat about ten pieces of sushi, and to put it in context my friends probably eat about 25-30 pieces of sushi each. Their bill is usually about $25 each and mine is usually about $12. So, it was a good exercise day as well as food day which makes me happy. Now of course it is Monday and I am back at work trying to get things accomplished again.

Saturday, November 27, 2004

The problem with running around in the jungle after dark is that you injure yourself really easily. Last night the trail we were running was far too long (and for the record far too long is when 12 people and not just me get stuck in the dark) and my flashlight died. Also the trail was really uneven and I am a complete klutz. I think I fell on rocks 12 times while there was still daylight. However, after dark I started to fall into holes and dips along the trail, I lost count of how many times I actually crashed down to the ground. Along the way, I managed to sprain both my ankles and badly bruise my knees. My right ankle is the most severely sprained but everything else is pretty painful too. Now, I admit to being highly uncoordinated but this time it was the responsibility of the individuals setting the trail to make sure it was an appropriate length and not dangerous, so I am a little annoyed especially since my sprained ankle curtails the hiking plans we had made today. Admittedly, I am lacking the self-preservation instincts of an over-enthusiastic lemming but having previously badly injured my left ankle I do actually know the consequences of doing any sort of really strenuous activity on an injured body part. Admittedly if it feels better I may play frisbee (I did say that I lacked good judgement) but right now I am reserving judgement to see if it feels better over the course of the day.

Friday, November 26, 2004

Working girl

There is something fundamentally wrong about being dressed in work clothes on a Saturday morning, and not just any Saturday morning but a really beautiful one. Anyway, I have to go into work today, and so I am fully dressed except for my heels, I fundamentally refuse to put on the heels until I have to do so to leave the house. I could explain the quirks of the legal system which require prosecutors and legal secretaries to work on Saturday but I will spare you the details. Suffice it to say that I am praying that this does not interfere with my weekly saturday romp through the jungle because after this week I definately need the exercise. I am however also going hiking tomorrow morning so I will work out this weekend. I was actually decent on food yesterday, could have been better but still decent given that I went to a party after work. However, I think I am now safe on parties until Christmas gets here, at least I hope I am safe for the next couple of weeks. Also, right after Christmas I am going to probably start taking diving classes so that will be another good physical activity into the mix of my life. Anyway, I am off to work now, hopefully I will not be there all day long.

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Belated Happy Thanksgiving

Yesterday was thanksgiving for me (I know, confusing for stateside people but work with me, I am an entire day ahead out here). So, of course there was ridiculous amounts of food, not one party but two parties. Although, in my defense, albeit not much of a defense, I at so much at the first party (i.e. a full plate and some appetizers) that I was unable to eat anything at the second party as opposed to all of my friends who ate at both places. All I can say is that when you drink water and it makes you feel ill, you have officially eaten too much food. Still, this is progress, I figure I ate about a third of what I ate last thanksgiving or at any previous thanksgiving for that matter. Tonight, I have another work party to attend but fortunately I will go run around like a maniac tomorrow in the jungle (although I have to work tomorrow which sucks rather a lot). Today, I ate a normal breakfast and a small lunch so I am returning to pre-holiday eating habits like a good healthy girl. I refuse to feel guilty, one day does not destroy a healthy lifestyle, it is what you do the next day and the day after that and the month after that which can cause you to lose ground. So far, I am holding steady and not losing ground which is a victory for the holiday season. Oh, and I am working on Christmas Day so that should curtail holiday parties on that day. Anyway, back to work, although to be frank nobody in the office is accomplishing anything really today but hey at least we are getting paid to be here and pretend to work.

Sunday, November 21, 2004

So, did you miss me?

Um, so I have been gone for awhile, due largely to work (I was at a conference for a couble of days last week). Anyway, I am back to posting and I have been working out as always. Let me see, last tuesday night I made it to aikido where I got hurled around by more advanced students and managed to not kill myself. The rest of the week was not that exciting, especially with the all day conference. Saturday, I went and ran around in the jungle for two and a half hours, we had a very long, poorly marked hash trail. Much of the begining of the trail involved sliding down a very rocky hill on my admittedly well-padded rear and I completely ripped the back of my pants open. Fortunately I was wearing a pair of bathing suit bottoms underneath which is an important precaution if you think that you may end up swimming in a river or two at some point in the afternoon. I did indeed end up slogging downstream for a very long way in a river until we reached the ocean. At that point we climbed uphill, well if you were me you actually slid down hill more than you climbed up, through some really nasty grass to the top of a mountain ridge. At this point the sun set and we broke out flash lights and eventually found our way down hill, which again required sliding on the buttocks over rocks, mud and grass. I got poked in the rear with a stick and trust me, I have the cut/large bruise to prove it. Then we hiked along the coast for about another 30 minutes until we finished the run. So, clearly I rested on Sunday to recover. Oh wait, no I skipped that part, instead I went snorkling for two hours with my friends and played ultimate frisbee for an additional two hours. So, today I am rather sore and tired, which may explain why I am procrastinating at work. Anyway, I should get back to my job now.

Monday, November 15, 2004

A brief update

I literally only have a second, but thought I would come back and post the following. The defendant in my trial took a plea right before jury selection so no trial, just lots of other work to get done right now.

Babbling words of panic

I am at 154 lbs today, but it doesn't count. Why doesn't it count you ask? Well, I never ate lunch yesterday unless you count the two cookies and small piece of bannana bread my co-worker fed me so that I didn't pass out when I could not leave the office to get lunch. I could not leave the office because I have my first jury trial today, okay let me rephrase, I have my first trial ever today. I may officially pass out right now. I am not prepared, I feel ill, and I may start hyperventilating soon. As my roommate said, her main goal during trial was not to cry in court, that seems like a good rule right now. Anyway, I am incredibly stressed (hence the lack of e-mail to my family, I will get on that I promise, just not right now) and that is bad. Although, apparently good for weight loss, go figure. So stressed that I am not doing things in the right order, for example I put on my makeup completely backwards this morning, a word to the wise, do not put on mascara before eye shadow, it just isn't pretty to behold. Oh, and don't demand new shoes right before trial when you already have 20 pairs of perfectly appropriate shoes including at least 5 pairs of black pumps because your roommates are just going to laugh at you and then take you home and make you eat dinner. Well, actually they made me cook dinner which was an interesting adventure given my stress level, they should just be grateful it was edible. Anyway, I have to go now, I will be back in a few days and possibly more coherent at that point but I am not promising anything.

Babbling words of panic

I am at 154 lbs today, but it doesn't count. Why doesn't it count you ask? Well, I never ate lunch yesterday unless you count the two cookies and small piece of bannana bread my co-worker fed me so that I didn't pass out when I could not leave the office to get lunch. I could not leave the office because I have my first jury trial today, okay let me rephrase, I have my first trial ever today. I may officially pass out right now. I am not prepared, I feel ill, and I may start hyperventilating soon. As my roommate said, her main goal during trial was not to cry in court, that seems like a good rule right now. Anyway, I am incredibly stressed (hence the lack of e-mail to my family, I will get on that I promise, just not right now) and that is bad. Although, apparently good for weight loss, go figure. So stressed that I am not doing things in the right order, for example I put on my makeup completely backwards this morning, a word to the wise, do not put on mascara before eye shadow, it just isn't pretty to behold. Oh, and don't demand new shoes right before trial when you already have 20 pairs of perfectly appropriate shoes including at least 5 pairs of black pumps because your roommates are just going to laugh at you and then take you home and make you eat dinner. Well, actually they made me cook dinner which was an interesting adventure given my stress level, they should just be grateful it was edible. Anyway, I have to go now, I will be back in a few days and possibly more coherent at that point but I am not promising anything.

Babbling words of panic

I am at 154 lbs today, but it doesn't count. Why doesn't it count you ask? Well, I never ate lunch yesterday unless you count the two cookies and small piece of bannana bread my co-worker fed me so that I didn't pass out when I could not leave the office to get lunch. I could not leave the office because I have my first jury trial today, okay let me rephrase, I have my first trial ever today. I may officially pass out right now. I am not prepared, I feel ill, and I may start hyperventilating soon. As my roommate said, her main goal during trial was not to cry in court, that seems like a good rule right now. Anyway, I am incredibly stressed (hence the lack of e-mail to my family, I will get on that I promise, just not right now) and that is bad. Although, apparently good for weight loss, go figure. So stressed that I am not doing things in the right order, for example I put on my makeup completely backwards this morning, a word to the wise, do not put on mascara before eye shadow, it just isn't pretty to behold. Oh, and don't demand new shoes right before trial when you already have 20 pairs of perfectly appropriate shoes including at least 5 pairs of black pumps because your roommates are just going to laugh at you and then take you home and make you eat dinner. Well, actually they made me cook dinner which was an interesting adventure given my stress level, they should just be grateful it was edible. Anyway, I have to go now, I will be back in a few days and possibly more coherent at that point but I am not promising anything.

Babbling words of panic

I am at 154 lbs today, but it doesn't count. Why doesn't it count you ask? Well, I never ate lunch yesterday unless you count the two cookies and small piece of bannana bread my co-worker fed me so that I didn't pass out when I could not leave the office to get lunch. I could not leave the office because I have my first jury trial today, okay let me rephrase, I have my first trial ever today. I may officially pass out right now. I am not prepared, I feel ill, and I may start hyperventilating soon. As my roommate said, her main goal during trial was not to cry in court, that seems like a good rule right now. Anyway, I am incredibly stressed (hence the lack of e-mail to my family, I will get on that I promise, just not right now) and that is bad. Although, apparently good for weight loss, go figure. So stressed that I am not doing things in the right order, for example I put on my makeup completely backwards this morning, a word to the wise, do not put on mascara before eye shadow, it just isn't pretty to behold. Oh, and don't demand new shoes right before trial when you already have 20 pairs of perfectly appropriate shoes including at least 5 pairs of black pumps because your roommates are just going to laugh at you and then take you home and make you eat dinner. Well, actually they made me cook dinner which was an interesting adventure given my stress level, they should just be grateful it was edible. Anyway, I have to go now, I will be back in a few days and possibly more coherent at that point but I am not promising anything.

Babbling words of panic

I am at 154 lbs today, but it doesn't count. Why doesn't it count you ask? Well, I never ate lunch yesterday unless you count the two cookies and small piece of bannana bread my co-worker fed me so that I didn't pass out when I could not leave the office to get lunch. I could not leave the office because I have my first jury trial today, okay let me rephrase, I have my first trial ever today. I may officially pass out right now. I am not prepared, I feel ill, and I may start hyperventilating soon. As my roommate said, her main goal during trial was not to cry in court, that seems like a good rule right now. Anyway, I am incredibly stressed (hence the lack of e-mail to my family, I will get on that I promise, just not right now) and that is bad. Although, apparently good for weight loss, go figure. So stressed that I am not doing things in the right order, for example I put on my makeup completely backwards this morning, a word to the wise, do not put on mascara before eye shadow, it just isn't pretty to behold. Oh, and don't demand new shoes right before trial when you already have 20 pairs of perfectly appropriate shoes including at least 5 pairs of black pumps because your roommates are just going to laugh at you and then take you home and make you eat dinner. Well, actually they made me cook dinner which was an interesting adventure given my stress level, they should just be grateful it was edible. Anyway, I have to go now, I will be back in a few days and possibly more coherent at that point but I am not promising anything.

Babbling words of panic

I am at 154 lbs today, but it doesn't count. Why doesn't it count you ask? Well, I never ate lunch yesterday unless you count the two cookies and small piece of bannana bread my co-worker fed me so that I didn't pass out when I could not leave the office to get lunch. I could not leave the office because I have my first jury trial today, okay let me rephrase, I have my first trial ever today. I may officially pass out right now. I am not prepared, I feel ill, and I may start hyperventilating soon. As my roommate said, her main goal during trial was not to cry in court, that seems like a good rule right now. Anyway, I am incredibly stressed (hence the lack of e-mail to my family, I will get on that I promise, just not right now) and that is bad. Although, apparently good for weight loss, go figure. So stressed that I am not doing things in the right order, for example I put on my makeup completely backwards this morning, a word to the wise, do not put on mascara before eye shadow, it just isn't pretty to behold. Oh, and don't demand new shoes right before trial when you already have 20 pairs of perfectly appropriate shoes including at least 5 pairs of black pumps because your roommates are just going to laugh at you and then take you home and make you eat dinner. Well, actually they made me cook dinner which was an interesting adventure given my stress level, they should just be grateful it was edible. Anyway, I have to go now, I will be back in a few days and possibly more coherent at that point but I am not promising anything.

Saturday, November 13, 2004

Still busy

I am still horribly busy with work, so this will be very short. Anyway, ran around in the jungle yesterday and got horribly lost near the end of the run so I figure that was three hours of working out rather than two. Today, I am working on trial prep and doing laundry but I will probably go play frisbee anyway. I am fine on food for the past few days and holding steady in a lovely plateau at 154.5. Anyway, I am off to eat lunch and get back to doing work, I seriously cannot wait for the upcoming week to be over and done with so I can actually enjoy my weekends.

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Very Busy

In case you haven't gleaned the above from my lack of posting, I am ridiculously busy at work right now with a potential jury trial scheduled for tuesday. Anyway, very briefly, I had yesterday off and we went hiking for about four hours down to a very cool waterfall. Of course, then we had to dash home and go to a charitable function that a lot of people from work were attending ( a quiz bowl type thing for Habitat for Humanity) and after that I just crashed. I will probably have to spend time this weekend doing work type activities but I hope to get in my standard weekend exercise activities. Anyway, I have to go get ready for work which will probably be non-stop all day (as it has been this whole week).

Monday, November 08, 2004

Blah

I am at work, in case that wasn't obvious given the time of day I am posting. Anyway, this is the first free moment that I have had today because it has been really busy. Last night, my food was horrible because my roommates insisted on getting pizza for dinner and I ate some while we were sitting around playing trivial pursuit (yes I know I am a nerd). Today, I haven't eaten very much at all by contrast which is probably bad because I have aikido this evening and I am not going to have time for dinner before I go to class. So, I should probably walk over to the nearby shopping center and get food but I am wearing impractical shoes for walking because I always wear high heels to work and I don't want to cross the really busy street between here and there. Anyway, this means I probably will not eat enough today which is bad. I need to work on stabilizing my eating habits (even though they are pretty good overall) and making sure I am eating a more balanced diet. I am working on that but it has been slipping because I have been insanely busy at work, due to the fact I may go to trial next week. Anyway, speaking of work I have to go back to getting things accomplished now.

Sunday, November 07, 2004

Positive thinking

My friends and I were having this really interesting conversation yesterday, and for the record we had it way before we ended up at a bar talking about football. Anyway, I will spare you the in-depth analysis of college football rankings and move right along to the earlier conversation which occurred on the way back from frisbee (which by the way I still suck at in case you were wondering). Anyway, our conversation was about how people can become so focused on work and making money that they miss the truly great opportunities around them to enjoy their lives, like going out with friends or visiting foreign countries or just hiking around the countryside. It got me to thinking, how many of us who are losing weight do the same thing? We get caught up in where we are at the moment, the daily struggles if you will and forget to pause and really enjoy where we are and how far (hopefully) we have come in the journey. I know I get bogged down in where I would like to be or in guilt that I ate too much and I forget to appreciate the health I have gained or the body that I am currently living in at this precise moment in time. Admittedly it is not a perfect body but it takes me where I want to go now, upstairs without getting out of breath, up and over waterfalls, through jungle thickets, across plains of tall waving grass, swimming in the ocean, and around work each and every day. I need to learn to enjoy that fact and be grateful for it, something for me to work on today.

Saturday, November 06, 2004

Pretty purple circles

Right now, I think my bruises have bruises. Then again, these things will happen when you climb up a waterfall the wrong way using 0nly a little rope and some help from your fellow hashers (i.e. other crazy people running through the jungle with you). Other then the waterfall it was actually a relatively easy run yesterday and reasonably short as well. Yesterday I also hit 154.5 so I am still slowly inching down the scale, I am fine with the speed of my loss because my muscles are begining to tone up and I can see a measuring tape difference as well. Besides, I would really like to avoid sagging skin, a byproduct often of losing weight too fast. Anyway, this afternoon there is more running around and exercising which should be good for me as well. Right now I need to get dressed and go run some errands around town. It looks like it is going to be a beautiful hot day here in the tropics so I am going to spend a lot of time outside being active.

Thursday, November 04, 2004

Me no wanna

So, yesterday I was having a serious case of the "me no wanna's" as I like to call them. Basically, I had to go to aikido and I really did not want to go, and I mean really didn't want to go. Normally, tuesdays are aikido but this tuesday we went hiking for five hours and didn't make it to class. So, I didn't want to go because I knew it would be hard and I would mess up a lot (which can be kind of traumatic if you are a perfectionist like me) plus I had a long day at work. All of these are relatively valid excuses but I knew that I would feel worse if I didn't go due to the guilt about skipping class. So, I went to class and I had a good time. Imagine that, I went and sweated for an hour and a half and got out all my stress from the day and I felt magically better. This happens a lot to me, I have to make myself go to any given athletic activity but I have a really good time once I get there and actually participate. Plus an hour and a half of continuous sweating and raising of my heartrate has to be a good thing in the long run. Further proof that the "me no wanna's" can be overcome by just ignoring them and doing what you know you need to do for your health.

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

Medium Girl

Yesterday I went and had a physical for work. Now, I think what is important to mention about this is that the doctor had to mark down what my build is on the form, and she marked down medium. That's right people, not heavy, not overweight (which were options) but medium. This was followed by a complete lack of the annual doctor lecture on how I need to lose weight for my health. I think some of you may have recieved that lecture at some point, I have heard it so many times that I can pretty much quote it verbatim in my sleep. However this time there was no lecture and I was allowed to go on my way in pretty short order (well other than the ear drops because apparently I had a mild ear infection and did not know it.) So, I am pleased about that, and tonight I go to aikido so I will be healthy and working out for today. The only patch on today is the really boring presentation I have to attend which I anticipate having terrible food and dull speakers. Anyway, I am going to go get organized for work now and hopefully get everything done that I need to before I get in and start having to do my real job.

Tuesday, November 02, 2004

Hiking holiday

Yesterday was a holiday, one of the inumerable benefits of working for the government is getting rather random days off. Anyway, we went and did a four hour hike, two hour in to a waterfall and two hours out. Well, and we spent an hour at the waterfall eating lunch and swimming around the big pool. It was pretty much downhill going in and uphill coming back out the other way. I much preferred the uphill to the downhill because I am better at climbing than descending. Today however it is back to work, and I have a physical this afternoon. It ought to be interesting to see what the doctor says about my current overall health since I have lost weight. Anyway, maybe I will get a chance to write more later but I have to get ready for work now.